Seriously - about the title.

I've been thinking about this for a long time. It feels like every single person I thought was my friend is stabbing me in my back. Or I'm pushing them away. I feel like I'm in the end of the road now. My basketball team for example... I hear every time I go to the practise them talking shit about me, looking at me like I'm just a freak, and nothing more for them to feel about me. Is it really that because I don't smoke, I don't use drugs, I don't drink and I'm a virgin that keeps me out of their range? It's a fucking teamsport for gods sake! We're 15, so is it so damn hard to just accept everyone to play? I don't really know anymore. If I tell someone to shut up when they pick up my mother and my life against me, they start a war against me! Fine! I get that people don't have to bo always friends with each other, but you don't have to start automatically push them away if you're not like them. Basketball... Like, if you want to win games no one can do it on their own, so why not to accept all the players - whatever their size, eyecolour, schoolgrade, shoesize or whatever! I talked to my coach and now it's kinda okay, but not finished. They don't trust me now and thinks I'm some kind of bitch and crying baby. I don't like them, they don't like me - but can we at least play some ball without beating each other up?

Sorry, a quickie... Have to go - again. I'll edit later...